Run Eat Tri Yogi

I'm not sure why my birthday torments me each year. You'd think that by my survival and making it another year would make me feel victorious, indeed! But it actually puts me in a state of depression, something I've been struggling to overcome. Those who know me well know that I don't just take things in life. If I don't like something, I will do whatever it takes to change it.  My emotional roller coaster around my birthday (and a lot of holidays) has had me perplexed. As I had a complete meltdown today- alone in the house - I realized that my vulnerable state gives Satan a tiny opening to feed lies into my head.  He doesn't want me to be happy -- I SHOULD be miserable, angry and depressed. After all, he worked so hard to torment me and break me down. This is my weak moment because my emotions are just overloaded. But here is something he cannot take away.  I am a survivor.  I have gone through some cruel abuse a child and adolescent - a human being, in

When I was younger, writing came naturally. It may have to do with the way I was raised... remain in the background, do not speak unless spoken to, make no eye contact and absolutely do not show emotions or share my feelings.  So writing made sense. I had been entertaining the idea of blogging for some time now but it was during my run today that I felt that this was something I absolutely had to do. We, runners, come up with some insanely great ideas while running, right??  We are so productive in our minds - resolving personal issues, meal planning, remember tasks we've forgotten to do... as well as some deep, profound thoughts.  And for me,  those meal planning ideas can get pretty serious! During my trail run today, my thoughts turned morbid.  It was a rough run.  Admit it, you've had them too! What if there's something more to why I haven't been feeling like running lately? (Besides the fact that I'm rebounding from running injuries). What if I have ca